I think the biggest question on our minds is: how?
- How can my life be so complicated while others seem so simple?
- How can I be so depressed yet everyone else so happy?
- How can I be such a loser, yet everyone else so successful?
- How do they make life seem so easy?
This the root question of pretty much all my content on my blog. It’s a question I think of daily, yet to be perfectly honest, I’m too scared to answer it.
And that’s because there are only two answers:
- Life sucks. I’m unlucky.
- I don’t know the second one
I want to say, “they’re life is less complicated and more happy and more successful because they said one day: it’s time for my dream.”
Literally dropped their textbooks, flunked out of college and for the rest of their life, devoted themselves entirely to what they love. They ignored their friends’ and family’s opinions regardless how alone it made them feel, and listened to their heart. Took a job just to make ends meet and in their free time, worked tirelessly with their goal in mind.
I really want this to be the second answer.
But it’s just…it’s so risky and it’ll be so hard…
This is my life right now.
On one hand, I’m living the life my family wants: college, degree, computer science. 50% of my time and effort is devoted to their expectations. I make ends meet of course, I do decently in classes and join clubs, but is it making me happy?
On the other hand, I’m living the life I want: bodybuilding and designing. These are my passions and what I love to do. Unfortunately for them, I can only devote the other 50% of my time. I mean how sad is that, I’m literally living half my life, for other people.
This is my current dilemma.
I want to devote 100% of my time and effort to my dream, but I’m too afraid of what my dad and friends will think and also, how it might not work. It’s a huge risk but I have only one life…and time is running out…
But what if I choose the obvious answer, and I don’t work as hard as I can and I end up with my back against the wall…that would suck. Sigh.
One day…yeah, one day. I’ll make sense of all this.
One day I’ll figure out if this small word, “success” that we put so much emphasis on and power into, is simply just a decision to wake up one day and chase your dreams. And if that’s the only thing distinguishing us from actors and YouTubers and celebrities and everyone else we envy.